Hello, friends (: It has been quite a while since I made a post so I apologize for my absence and inconsistency. As so many other people have been saying, this past semester was horrendous.
I’ve been telling myself for months that I needed to write again but I couldn’t bring myself to do it. The timing always felt completely off and honestly, I had nothing positive to say. It seemed like every time I turned around something else was happening to push me further and further toward my breaking point. To make matters worse, I had very high hopes for the semester and let me tell you… I WAS LET DOWN. It’s almost like the Universe was testing me in every way imaginable to see if I was going to stick to my guns or crumble under the pressure.
Truth be told, 2017 as a whole was extremely rough. I would venture to say that it was the hardest year of my life. It’s okay though. Today is a brand new day and tomorrow marks a brand new year.
So here I am, at 7 p.m. on New Years’ Eve finally preparing myself to take a brief trek down memory lane and set my most pure intentions for the New Year. I suppose we’ll start with some of the best and worst moments of 2017 and then I’ll let you guys in on my goals for the upcoming year.
The Worst of 2017 (in no particular order):
- Finally being smacked with the pain of losing my dad
- Losing friendships
- Missing opportunities
- Witnessing campus police assault my classmates
- My professor passing away mid-semester
The Best of 2017 (in no particular order):
- Gaining knowledge
- Taking a yoga class
- Making new friends & building better bonds with “old” ones
- Getting my scholarship(s)
- Getting my new tat
- Going to Orlando for the first time
- Meeting my best friend & girlfriend ❤
2017 brought me the lowest GPA I have ever had but it also brought me awareness. 2017 brought me loss and hardship but it also brought some of the best people into my life. 2017 brought me a ton of solitude but it also brought me my voice.
I am very thankful that I was given a lot of space and time to reflect on my shortcomings this year so that I am able to put my best foot forward next year. I realized that many of the issues I encountered this year were self inflicted. I lack discipline and I’m afraid of a lot more than I was willing to admit. On the brightside, I was able to use that realization to create a feasible list of goals for 2018.
- Wake up @ 8am daily
- Eat (at least) 3 meals a day
- Write something new every week
- Daily meditation
- Drink more water
- Go to the gym twice a week
- Take a dancing &/or singing class
- Cut down on social media use
- Secure an internship
- Get more scholarships
- SET BOUNDARIES
- Perform somewhere
- Get a 3.8 Spring ‘18
- Plan my program
- Go to therapy regularly
- Read 12 new books
- Be a better listener & communicator
- Be radically open & honest
- Save $$
I hope y’all hold me accountable. *insert side eye*
This is where I sign off because there’s not much more to say that fifty million people haven’t already said regarding the way 2017 turned out and how to approach the new year. I just pray that everyone has a better year than they did this time around, even if it wasn’t hot garbage.
Also, I think I’m going to start ending my posts with a quote or two… or ten. (fun fact: I like quotes)
SO, my top five to set the tone for 2018 are as follows:
“The light does not argue.”
“You don’t need to see the entire staircase to take the first step.”
“In a world that wants us to whisper, I choose to yell.”
“Be fearless. Nothing is impossible so fear less.”
“Above all, send the bees love. Every little thing wants to be loved.”